15 March 2006
I have a couple of very small rough sketches for this "Serenity Prayer" piece, but the one thing I know I want to include is the actual words of the prayer, so I thought I'd start there. The Serenity Prayer as it stands is somewht trite, but the way it's used by people who are recovering from addiction is anything but trite. People in recovery most often recite the Serenity Prayer in times of great stress and agitation, so I wanted to write the prayer in a way that would reflect this. I let myself randomly mix up and repeat the words so they would become more ambiguous and express some of the doubts and fears that a recovering alcoholic or addict faces in extreme moments. I also wanted to work directly on the block, so I wrote the prayer backwards with a soft pencil, which was really exciting.
Excitement is what I'm looking for. I can't imagine I'll ever be doing pure improvisation in woodblock, but I'm trying to adjust my process of working so that I'm engaged with the work at each step. I want to be constantly reevaluating as I go, constantly getting feedback from the work in progress and constantly readjusting my decisions based on what's happening in each step.
As Tom said in an earlier comment, it might turn out to be a good print and it might not! What I want to do is pull myself away from my fear of making a bad print. I want to be willing to make a bad print, willing to start over or throw a block away if it doesn't satisfy me, willing to not know where I'm going, willing to "waste my time." Mostly I want to experiment, to play, to find my own voice in this medium.